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How long?

Published May 21, 2016 by jaxtrichs

How long does it take to regrow hair?

“For a post-pubescent or young adult, it takes about 65 days for eyebrows to regrow following plucking. For a mature adult, it will take about 56 days for eyebrow hair to regrow and about 73 days for a person at retirement age.”

Well it has been 63 days for me and I am not sure I really see my progress. Naturally there is SOME growth, but darnit I want all of my brows and lashes!!! Lol!

Ah well. I will continue to be patient. I would looooove to get them nice and full so that I can get them arched this summer. I look forward to being able to walk out of a pool with full confidence!!

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Doing well

Published May 19, 2016 by jaxtrichs

So far so good! I think I can confirm that my bad urge episode was due to mascara. I have not had 1 single urge since then and it is great to have some “normalcy” in my life… a new normal. A world of no urges at all is definitely my preference.

So now I’m focusing on other goals to make myself a better person. Starting Monday I am going to challenge myself to 8 weeks if no bread or sugar. I have already started a blog here on WordPress called ChubBeGone so check me out and help me along the way!!

Reflection

Published May 16, 2016 by jaxtrichs

Well I haven’t had any urge attacks since my last one. I have been trying to determine what made it so bad. I think it’s because I’ve been wearing mascara so consistently. I have been loving my lashes so much and want to flaunt them, but if I want to actually  keep them, I guess I need to layoff the mascara for a while and save that for special occasions only. I definitely don’t want to go through that again. I still have some areas that I wish would hurry up and grow back in, but otherwise I’m very pleased with my progress!!

Hard Day

Published May 13, 2016 by jaxtrichs

Yesterday. Was. AWFUL!!!! Omg the horror. Lol. I’m talking urge after urge after urge and it was pure torture!!!!!! SO AWFUL!!!!
BUT…. I didn’t pick! It was sooooooooooooo hard! By far the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I would  rather have taken a 500 question test than endure yesterday again.

I touched, I even did a few little tugs but somehow I never brought myself to pull out a full lash. I wrote “Do Not Pick” about a gazillion times. I gave myself pep talks. I talked to myself about my past and future self and wanting to be greater. I owe it to myself to have full beautiful lashes and brows and the only thing stopping me is Me! I’m grateful that I didn’t cave in. I’m sure there will be more days like this. I have won 1 battle in this huge war and I’m determined to win.

It’s an extremely emotional battle. Just typing this out brings tears to my eyes. I feel that the harder i try the weaker I get. I know it sounds weird but I can’t help but wonder if I’ll always be this strong. I mean technically I did touch the hairs, and I came so close numerous times to just yanking one out. I can’t lie…. it hurts so good!! Ugh, it just does!!

There is nothing else in the world that feels like picking. The feeling is amazing, let’s be honest. I know that picking gives my mind and body some type of reward and that’s why it’s so hard to stop. But I have to be bigger than my problem and think my way out of this. I will continue to be strong for myself. My present and future self deserves a better life WITHOUT Trichotillomania and I plan to go get it

I AM NOT A PICKER ANYMORE!!!!!

Oops

Published May 11, 2016 by jaxtrichs

Ok time to blog because I am about to have an oopsy big time. I have a spot on my right brow that I would be more than happy to pull out and I am trying my best to refrain. It is in an area that is already struggling to grow back and it would be so stupid to pick from this spot of all places. Please don’t be stupid, self! You have come toooooooo far!! I think I have done so much damage to this spot and am not sure if it’ll ever grow back how I want but I’ll never know if I keep plucking it!!! I keep touching and stroking it so it’s time to do something else with my hands. Blogging helps keep me strong.

I think I will create a new blog or just add to this one. It will be focused on nutrition. Beyond not picking, I want to be healthy inside and out. I used to run marathons and eat perfectly but lately I’ve been letting my cravings get the best of me. I need to keep this under control before it gets out of hand. I will prepare this week and next week I will start new journal entries on foods and recipes to keep me healthy. I notice that with picking, blogging helps me hold myself accountable so I’m going to give it a try in other areas. I would like to lose 15 lbs by July. I think that is very feasible, so let’s do it!!

I want this blog to be solely focused on overcoming Trichotillomania so I will post the name of the new blog soon

Thanks for reading! And I hope I encouraged someone today. Knowing that even one person is strengthened by my post helps me tremendously. Seriously. I want to be that glimmer of hope, not only for myself, but for anyone who ever doubts that it can be overcome

Be encouraged. Be Blessed. Be strong

I AM NOT A PICKER ANYMORE!!!!

7 Weeks

Published May 6, 2016 by jaxtrichs

My endurance is weakening so I must blog about it. Though I haven’t picked, I do touch my brows and lashes way too much for comfort. I KNOW what’s next if I keep taunting myself

I need a new goal of some sort. Right now I just feel like I’m going as long as I can, but I need attainable goals to set for myself. Since I am focused on making it 1 full year of no picking, I’ll consider 3 months my 1st milestone. I started this blog on 3/17 and have not picked since then. So on June 17th I will reward myself with ice cream.
As a double challenge, I will let this be a fitness challenge as well, as I looooove ice cream but need to lose a few pounds

So cheers to me on my journey to 3 months as my 1st milestone to 1 year of no picking. Hooray!

I AM NOT A PICKER ANYMORE!!!