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Dedication

Published July 29, 2014 by jaxtrichs

I always laugh when someone eats right and exercises for 1 whole week and expect to see a sudden change.  I ask them “How long did it take you to get all of that weight?  So how long do you think it will take to get rid of it?”.

This is the very reason why I try to document my feelings on my weakness.  Over the years I have put an overabundance of energy into my picking habit, so it is imperative that I expend just as much energy to quit. It is so exhausting.  Why does something so stupid have to be so hard.  Why do I have to be the person who is addicted to pulling out my own lashes and brows. It feels so unfair sometimes.  It’s not ok. I know I’m beautiful and want to be as beautiful as I can.  My husband once asked me, “If you don’t want to do it and no one is making you do it, then why do you do it?”.

 

I have no frikkin idea.  Its just something that I have failed to conquer.  I do not want this to have control of me forever,  but I know that it can only stop with my own willpower.  So far I have been tempted at least a few times every single day,  but nothing too outrageous.  I’m standing strong.

 

I am not a picker anymore!!!!!

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Don’t Be Fooled

Published July 28, 2014 by jaxtrichs

1 common trick that my mind likes to play on me is the pimple game. I will sometimes get a pimple in or near my eyebrows that confuse my picking urges. What I have been trying to teach myself to do in these situations is plan ahead.  

A few days ago I could feel the soreness of a new bump on my brow. I looked in the mirror and told myself that these times are usually tough for me due to the abundance of sensation that it gives me.  I told myself to GET OVER IT!!! This is not new. This is not exciting.  This is not exhilarating.  This is a problem.  A problem that can be fixed if you just be strong and fight the feeling for a few days

So far so good…

I am not a picker anymore!!!!….

Old Habits Die Hard

Published July 25, 2014 by jaxtrichs

I have always heard that it takes 14 days to break a habit.  Sadly,  I don’t think this applies to something like Trichotillomania.  For me this condition has so many aspects to it. Other than urges, sometimes I do get the urge to pick just out of habit.  I will find that if I go too long without an urge,  my hands don’t necessarily know what to do with their selves. I will reach up to my beautiful lashes and bother them just because they have not been bothered in a while.  1 thing that I have done to help me is by creating this blog.  In the past I have tried to keep a diary, but I was so afraid of someone finding it that I was never 100% honest with myself or my Journaling for it to be effective.

I am truly excited to learn more about myself and overcoming this condition.  I have been researching methods and will be discussing them along my journey of overcoming

 

I am not a picker anymore!!!!!

No Urges

Published July 23, 2014 by jaxtrichs

 I am glad to say I have no urges today! I am vulnerable to them because it is easy for me to get an urge when I am experiencing high emotions.  Today, my significant other and I are discussing a problematic ongoing issue,  so I want to write and prepare myself for the urge of self destruction.  I am not a picker anymore!!

1 Year No Trichs

Published July 22, 2014 by jaxtrichs

This is a blog about a battle that I have been facing for most of my life. Trichotillomania.  Also known as Hair Pulling.  Today I begin to actively challenge myself to finally experience 1 full year without this habit controlling my life. I will be documenting all of my ups and downs in an effort to better myself,  and hopefully find help or help someone else along the way. This is Day 1. I am not a picker anymore